we’re having a heat wave and i have been trying to catch-up on my sleep. it’s part of the healthy living plan i occasionally remember. it involves yoga–which i don’t have a problem remembering, less computer staring–which i do have a problem remembering, cooking at home, eating breakfast, not drinking very much alcohol, drinking a lot of water and getting enough sleep. i cannot ever sleep in in the morning (not that my parents who get up at 5:30 would agree with that but still). so last night i went to bed at 9:45. the night before, 10:30. the night before, 10. you are SO NOT INTERESTED in this, i imagine but i just think it is weird how sort of ocd i can be about some things. i like routines and i still, even what 4 months since pete left? don’t feel like i have a good one. i mean, i have one. it involves waking up, getting dressed, breakfast at starbucks, early to work (always always early). work. yoga. dinner wherever i can find it. tv on the computer until i can’t keep my eyes open anymore at midnight. THIS IS TERRIBLE. not a way to live. i am turning into a cylon. i am using words from tv programs like “cylon”.
anyway, i am trying to figure writing back into my life. also art. i want a studio or some place i can make weird, big pictures. i miss making stuff a lot. last night the med student exchange student made me some delicious “dego” food. i am pretty sure this is an offensive term for italian but i think he’s italian so he gets to use it. like “guido” right? i need to keep getting these chill guys who make food to stay with me. it’s a good way to restore your faith in humanity a little. people who need you for things like bus routes and weather advice. oh, i miss those days.
anyway, now i have to get out of the warm comfy island and get ready for work! and on and on and on and on…
